The Luckiest (because I have you)

"That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy and the only thing in focus becomes you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that it will go away all at the same time."

Drew Barrymore (Never Been Kissed)

                                              

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend... 

I am luckiest girl in the world. I have a great family, amazing friends, a purposeful career, and a religion that I believe in. But I am luckiest because I have Taylor. Ever since he came into my life I have been so happy. I have had moments when its hard and things aren't perfect but no matter what bottom line he makes me the happiest I have ever been. Since he is leaving in nine days I thought I would right something just for him. Something to let the whole world know how lucky I got.A year and a half ago my family was kinda falling apart.My dad almost died of a pulmonary embolism and was in the hospital. My mom was so busy with work to make ends meet and so I had to take on a lot of responsibility at home. I honestly didn't think I could deal with everything. But then I met Taylor. He came in and supported me and helped me. He would come over and help me make dinner and put the kids to bed. He would play with them and try to keep me from stressing out. Every so often he would take me and the kids out to dinner and a movie and then would carry them up to bed and tell them stories and kiss them good night. Honestly, how many kids in high school would do that for someone that they were just barely starting to date. He didn't have any reason to jump in and help, he just did. I am so lucky to have someone so selfless and supportive. One time when I was sick, which means I was grumpy, Taylor came over to hang out with me. He knew that I hadn't eaten so he started to make me soup. Being the needy person that I am I wanted him to stay and sit with me instead of make me soup. Taylor carried our big wooden bench over to the kitchen near the stove. He then placed three large pillows across it, picked me up and carried me to the bench. He layed me down and covered me with a blanket and then continued to make my soup while holding onto my hand. When it was done he carried me back over to  the couch and brought me my bowl of soup. I am so lucky to have someone who takes care of me. And taking care of me includes keeping me eating,sleeping, making me take my pills, staying near me, and dealing with my grouchy needs. If not for him I would be less happy, less healthy, less everything.
Taylor has always believed in me, even when I don't believe in myself. I have been working on a research project for quite some time and there are a lot of moments when it seems just too hard to keep going. There is always so much pressure and no matter how hard and long we work, our results never seem to show it. There were many times that I was going to give up. But I had Taylor. He was and is there for everything. He listens to my rants, views my presentations, tries his best to understand all the concepts (which is pretty boring and confusing), and is always there to talk to after every meeting, every lab, every big decision. He has helped me believe in myself and in the project. He always pushed me forward, even when I didn't want to move. I am so grateful to him for having the faith in me that I forgot to have so many times. I am so lucky to have someone who sees the absolute best in me and helps me see it too. There are about a billion reasons that I am lucky to have Taylor. I am lucky to have someone sweet and kind and giving and caring. Someone who takes care of me and supports me. Someone who loves me and cares about the people and things that I love. Someone who is willing to deal with all the bad days. Someone who has never given up on me. I am lucky to be in love with my best friend. I am the luckiest girl in the word because I get to be with the one person I am head over heels in love with and who is perfect for me in every way. 

So to Taylor...Thanks for being you and loving me, I am so lucky to have you! The last year and a half has been a fairy tale! You are the greatest thing that ever happened to my life. You are such a good example and have made me a better, more happy person. I am so proud of you and everything that you do. You are going to be the best missionary out there. Rome is blessed and lucky to have someone as great as you. Good luck! I love you so so much...always and forever...and ever and ever!


"I don't get many things right the first time, in fact, I am told that a lot. Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles, the falls, brought me here. And where was I before the day that I first saw your handsome face and now I see it everyday...and I know that I am the luckiest... I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you...I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belong, that I know that I am the luckiest."


Ben Folds, The Luckiest