Simply Remember the Rainbow

Guess what? Taylor has been gone for a week. And it has been tough. I have really missed Him. But I made it through! I have spent the whole week talking about him and thinking about him and answering questions about him. Its been really good to think about Taylor and all of our memories but its also been hard to know that these new memories are without him. Sunday night I was starting to doubt some things and get nervous so I said a prayer. I turned my scriptures to the story of Job. He lost everything and he still had hope. And God blessed him for it. And then I had a giant epiphany that I seem to have everytime I start to forget my blessings. God is simply trying to give me a rainbow. Its hard to have Taylor gone but its just the rain before the beautiful rainbow. Just the trial before the happy ending. It has to happen. Here I am always thinking that this is hard but when do I stop to think of what it will lead to. I never stop to think about its importance or its necessity to my happily ever after. Rainbows come form light and rain. Both are needed. Good and bad. hard and easy. Sad and happy. I am so grateful that God is willing to give me the rainbow even when I always complain about the rain.

This week has not only been rain. There has also been a lot of light. My cousins are in town and I spent the week and the weekend babysitting them. We had so much fun! Gosh my little cousin Sophie is the love of my life. She made me smile and she gave me hope in Taylor and our love. And she is 8. We played water games and went swimming and even went to the lab! Ha ha where we got in a water fight! All the girls got to extract their DNA and play with Pipettes. It was fabulous. When I got home there was a letter from Taylor in the mailbox. I was so excited I started screaming and laughing and crying at the mailbox. He is doing so great and he made me feel so happy!We went to Midway and hung out with my aunt Becky and my cousin Madi for the rest of the weekend. We played barbies and watched movies and ate tons and tons of good food. I got to spend time with Haley and had a barbecue with my neighbors. It was so much fun and I didn't feel sad, just grateful for sweet family and friends. This week may have been sad and hard at times but there were a lot of moments of love and happiness. Lots of moments where I could just tell a whole bunch of little girls cute stories of me and Taylor and not feel sad. Just glad that I have such great memories and such a great guy. God has blessed me so much! With lots of rain comes lots of light. So to all those people who feel life is just too hard to live, remember there is a rainbow after every storm and if you look hard to see through the rain and the fog you will always find the light. Remember that God is always trying to give you the rainbow, you just have to make it through the rain.

So I have been a picture taking maniac this week and took a lot of pictures of my first whole week with Taylor gone. Its not super exciting but its been fun!

My girls in the kiddy pool!

Me and Sarah Brewster

Me and my favorite little girl Sophie

All the kids with there DNA spit samples

Our water guns for the water fight

Lab work!

Day 3 and already in the lab working! I feel good

Pipettes

My very first letter from Elder Pizza! 

Playing Barbies in the playhouse

Swimming in Midway with the girls

Madi and Brinlee!

Driving around the street in cool pink cars

Day four with the daisies. My photography is fabulous. Along with my frumpy face.

Me and my very favorite cousin!

The food table at the family party

My Dad, Spencer, and my cute sister Millie

Buff boys!

Me finally leaving Midway and looking fabulous

Gel electrophoresis is so exciting

I finally cleaned my car!

Day at the more serious lab. Usually I have my goggles and gloves on.

This is one corner of my little lab. We call it the cubicle!

I made snowballs and put them on our heads!

Even when I take Taylor's ring off, I still have it on me.

Snowballs

We made a snowman in June!

Ha ha I know that these pictures are just fabulous! Please just ignore the incredibly stupid captions. Even with Taylor gone I feel like I did a pretty good job of finding the light in the rain! He is so happy in the M.T.C. so why shouldn't I be happy? I am happy. I am a lucky lucky girl. I have friends and family and God and Taylor and much much more! I miss Elder Pizza but I know that God is simply trying to give me a rainbow! So here's to happy endings and rainbows and waiting and all the fun moments in between!